I keep waiting for gyspygirl to run away. I send too many emails. Too many texts because somehow I am afraid he will forget me. I doubt everything about myself. She didn't love me. All the signs were there. I am never going to have love. I have given up on ever having the one thing I have always wanted and dreamed about. It fucks me up. I am too wild, too emotional. Too broken. Too lonely. What made me cry today was not one person has said hi to me in email and that ripps me apart.
I a the loneliest guy in the world. Do u know what it is like to have two sisters who not once have asked me for coffee? Do you know what it is like to have no friends? Do you know what it is like to know in your heart the world is better off without you? I am not needed by anyone. I wish I was a sociopath cause then I wouldn't care so much but this world is too much. I try to tell people I am sad but nobody listens. Depression is just in ur head. That is how ignorant people are. You know why depressed people kill themselves it is because people say it is just in there head. How will I ever complete my quest if I cannot defeat this mind of mine. This heart.
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