I am the guy life forgot.. the boy who should not of been born because I have no reason to live... I haven't smiled.. I can't remember the last time I smiled and after malta girl I realize I just don't have it in me to let another person touch me again... I believe in love I just don't believe anyone could ever love me... since nobody ever has except my mother.. not my sisters, not my dad, not my friends.. when I had friends...I am what happens when you go without love to long..I am a broken man who sometimes finds his way out of bed and sometimes lays there in tears.. you can't tell people that.. they say it is in your head... maybe.. or maybe life can wreck someone so completely...
Truth is I look forward to the end.. I am too much of a coward to take my own life.. but my chest hurts..I am hoping it is something serious.. I was scared to find out at first but now.. I do not have a reason to live.... life is not fun...I look more forward to being asleep than away... it is a horrible way to live... I want to help malta girl discrover her voice.. she is very talented and leave this world forever..
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