How often do you check your inbox a day?

My computer is always near me.. kind of pathetic I know... it is because of the off chance someone will write to me.. doesn't make a lot of sense I suppose.. there email will not disapear.. it is just I am that lonely.. it has been 4 days maybe 5 maybe 10.. since anyone who cared about me emailed me.. they don't call.. I don't even look at the phone.. today wasa bad day...I am back on effexor and the side effects are comming...  I feel hopeless.. as if there is no point to getting up..I lay there all day watching TV...I cannot feel happiness.. I cannot remember the last time I really smiled..  I cannot remember the last time someone touched me...  I need to work on my app..http:.//cybersweetness.com  but I am too lonely.. I built the app so I might get to work with someone....but that never happens..I do not want success alone.. it would mean nothing..

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