I have no poetry left in my heart

Words that once fell in love are now laced in pain... it is as if my heart leaks acid as I try to find something beautiful to say.  I do not want love and yet I wnat it more than anything in the world.  Its just the one my heart wants does not want me and I am left trying to walk through this world forever wanting what I cannot have.  The place inside me where words once fell is locked away trying in vain to hold back the tears that are always just waiting there hoping that just once I get a happy ending.. that this girl sees the beauty in me that no other ever has and yet I have no faith she ever will... and part of me knows that my time here on earth will not continue forever... that each day I am sad... I have lost something... before I always had hope but now I have none... the dream.. the one thing I have always wanted was in my grasp and the cracks from my childhood stole it from me once again... I shall never love again, I shall never let another woman touch me.. I shall never touch anyone again... I can't take the fall when they see the broken man enough and say I cannot love you... which they always do.. which everyone who has ever known me has said except my mother... but she has to love me.. my sisters have said they cannot love me...

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