Trying to find the energy to keep going

The task at hand is a large one.  I have to reach inside myself and find the strength to make my dreams happen... it is not an easy thing to do.  In 2 months I have to beat my addictions, I have to turn each of my blogs into a success by being engaging enough to get people to read them.  I have to get all my 9 youtube channels to partner and hope to hell that is enough money where I am able to move to malta where I can start my new life.  I am tried of living in Edmonton, a place I am unhappy in.  I want to wake up each morning with a purpose.  I want my life to matter, to be able to say when I am old that I left this world a better place than when I found it.  The problem is the enormity of the task sometimes is daunting and online is a cruel place full of cruel people.  Maybe it is my fault... on youtube you have to push the limits.. it actually is a really sad commentary on our world how to get views on youtube you have to appeal to the lowest common denominator...

One foot in front of the other...

they call me igebadia.. http://youtube.com/gebalove please subscribe and help me reach for the stars.. gosh that is cheezy.. but what the heck.,..

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