waiting to die

I don't know why I still struggle to live.. I can barely make it through the day without vices.. when there is no sun in the sky there is nno happiness in me.  My mood changes with the seasons.. all  want is a fresh start away from this place where my sadness is strongest.  another winter, another christmas, another new years alone..  always alone.. depression and my childhood coming together.. all I want is a chance to break free of the chains the wrack my heart.. all I want is to wake up and feel excited for the day to come// but alas that is a dream.. I cannot remember the last time I truly felt any joy.. I hate you god for making me this way.. a fractured mind..

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