Family is the worst when it comes to succeeding online

More than once in this process of trying to build a carreer for myself online I have wanted to blow my brains out because of how my family treats me.  They never respect what I am trying to do or how hard it is.  They never want to do simple things like be quiet when they come into a room because I am trying to do a video.  When you try to explain this they never take it seriously until you end up getting mad and then your the bad guy because you dared say be quiet.  Then they come up with I hope your successful so you can move out and at that point all I want to do is take a knife and slash my wrists.  It is another person in my life tellling me they care about me so much they want me gone... I tell you what.. one day they will have that wish... but not the way they think.. they will come home to my cold lifeless body... You know why I love to travel.. it is because then I don't have to be around these horrible people.. my family who always made me feel like I am a freak.. like there was something wrong with me.. WELL there was you fucken assholes.. but you ignored that didn't you... cause that is the world we live in.. the last people you can ever tell you have problems to is your fucken family... no wonder when I can finally afford to leave they will all be dead to me.. DEAD...

Posted via email from a fractured mind...