I cannot get close to anyone

It is always a new learning experience when I am around other people after a fail relationship.  You start to see how much you have lost and will never get back in a way.  Love lost in some ways hinders us from ever finding it again.. we crack inside and lose the ability to believe in love.. the last relationship I was in she said I restored her belief in male female love... and for me she took it away... I was having a cigarette and it hit me that I will not ever let myself get close to people again... that I am damaged and need to be alone as I am now.. in the cool confines of my hotel room... I don't want to go out and see the world because all it does is make my lonely.. and it is too much... too hard.. too much pain inside... life has broke me... it has won.. I simply want a future where I can live on my own with my dogs and not have to be around other people... I don't remember to be around other people..

Posted via email from a fractured mind...