I want green smoke

There it is.. the feeling of loneliness that washes over me, making me simply want to send my brain into drowsyville so I can escape.  I am back to sleeping the days away and staying up all night.  To get out of this pattern I have to stay up a full 24 hours and hope I will be able to fall asleep then.. I have to get off my sleeping pills, get off the green smoke, get off the booze and get in shape.. it is just what for.. the things that are wrong in my life are things that are not easily fixed.. I need to be able to afford to move out on my own.. but how is such a thing possible when every month I pay $2500 just on bills, I have no degree, only work experience and even then my training at my last job was so bad that to call it training would be an insult.  Innovation was discouraged and new ideas were often met with ridicule not because of the idea but who presented the idea.  In many ways the verbal abuse I took on my last job really damaged any confidence I have.. I started drinking doing green smoke to simply survive what I would call battered employee syndrome where often work was so bad I would come home and think of killing myself.. working their sent me into the worst major depressive episode of my life..

Still depression should be a really good point on the resume right.. suffered from depression, never went out and spent all my time online.. can your business degree employees say that?

Posted via email from a fractured mind...